This post is out-of-the-ordinary for me, but these last few days have been anything but ordinary.
The results of this election have rocked me to my core. I know I am not alone. I am trying to wrap my head around all of this but am just numb. I am stunned, though sadly not surprised, by the news and tenor of hate-filled incidents perpetrated by our citizens (some as young as middle schoolers) against fellow citizens seen as “other,” feeling emboldened to now openly voice apparently long-suppressed racist, mysogynistic, bigoted beliefs. I feel a hollowness, the same hollowness I felt in those dark days following 9-11.
Like my friend Alys, I am struggling with the “what now” question. I am questioning what my role is within this country of ours. I am questioning so much about this clearly “bubbled” life I am living. I am questioning the importance of what I do or worry about on a daily basis, feeling the majority of it is self-serving.
Today, amidst this seemingly new reality that is the United States, I want — no, I need — to find a path different from the one I am now on, to figure out how to contribute in a way that serves a greater purpose. My entire life, I have shied away from confrontation, but I now feel a force drawing me into political activism. What that form will take, I don’t know. Might I find a way to use my photography? That would be wonderful, but I don’t know that either. Clarity will take some time and a lot of soul searching. I truly don’t have any idea where to begin. But this I do know: It’s time for me to put on my big girl panties, truly educate myself about how I can best help to make a difference, and step outside my comfort zone moving forward. And, perhaps, that is a blessing in disguise.
As for where our country goes from here, we can only pray that Trump will be successful. And, if not, our country will endure. Perhaps it is fitting that I am ending up posting this on Veterans Day, a day when we unite to honor all our military veterans for their patriotism, love of country, and willingness to serve and sacrifice for the common good – for all of our citizens without regard to “otherness.”
So, my friends, in these troubled and uncertain times, I am going to take a few steps back from blogging to give myself time to find the answers I am looking for. Part of me understands that stepping away may not be the correct path – in times of emotional need, friends are indeed our rocks, and each of you has been a rock for me more times than I can count along my WordPress journey. I am truly blessed. Please feel free to reach out to me, if you are so inclined. This is not “good-bye”; rather it’s “see you again soon.” #GodBlessAmerica
“Be the change you want to see in this world.” — Ghandi